ellos!:)

2009-02-16T22:28:00.005+08:00

YOYO PEEPERS ! :D
& JEWEL.! here ayes .
im posting cause this blog lan diao le wors :X
i post lerhs jiu alive liao yo ! ;D
zhu is like tht one ayes , lazy to post ohh .
agree tht is blog this is rotten yea ? :)
mans , its really rotten ohh .
im gonna make this post very looooooooong oO
HAIZHU arhs HAIZHU -.-
dont be lazy yeas ?
post alrytes ? dont be so lazy mans .
so , i posted , posted , posted ;D
i end here ayes , cyahs earthlings ;DD

2008-11-02T18:09:00.003+08:00

Today is Sunday. Room cleaned. Bedsheet changed. Clothes Ironed/Washed. Later going to town with Bobby..watching movie and maybe get a new Denim or something. Recently he has been neglected.. so we r gng to spend some quality time 2gether. Well, i must say he has been putting every effort to make sure we spend time 2gether... kinda of appreciate that. w/o him doing that, i will be just bz with work/class. glad to ve him trying so hard to put everything in place. hope i can 'co-ordinate' abit. haha. Next week is gng to be another hectic week @ work. Yet to complete my assignment and time is ticking away.

Everyone is busy with Bro's wedding - 29th Nov. Yea..with my best frenz- Dasao-to-be. Kinda of weird but oredi getting used to it. Gosh. over 80 tables for da dinner. Gonna be a bz nitez den.. task assigned to me is to look after the angpow. stressz. since Linda's my frenz, some of her guests r my frenz. Looking 4ward to see some of them.

ok..gtg.

2008-11-01T23:38:00.003+08:00

I am very affected by comments made by this someone who is dearest to me. Very disappointed with her and never would i dreamt that she would say such thing. Havent we showered her enuff love and concern? thou not all humans could see eye to eye but at least think before you spout things that are so hurting! there are two sides to a coin. things happen for a reason, or rather is how you see it. so why such hurting comments? by saying what she said.. she is gonna hurt many.. many.. sometimes i just wonder, how can a person feel contended with what they have. just how much is considered enuff to make ones feel satisfied. feel happy. feel comforted. feel loved. must something happen to your love ones to make you treasure the person more or worst, when you have lost that someone, that you regret not treating the person better?

just few days back, fadliz told me an accident almost took place at his work place. something almost hit him. if so, he would be gone. he told me, if he so, he would not be able to marry me etc.. i was rather disturbed by the conversation rightafter.. i have always taking things for granted. busy with work, busy with class. what if things really happen to him. If he is really gone, what would it do even if i cry my heart out? we really muznt take things for granted. you may not want to treat people especially nice but at least dun be crude with ur words etc. dun live to regret why didnt u treat whoever better. when things really happen, there's simply no turning back.

we live only once.

2008-10-07T00:42:00.001+08:00

bz bz bz. no time to talk at work. BUT i got three calls from some reputable job agencies in a day! hope i get something soon......

2008-10-04T22:01:00.003+08:00

today is oct the 4th. i think i was rejected. so demoralised. i told J that i didnt think i did well anyway cause what im doing are crap anyway. didnt sound too convincing myself either. 3 mre mths to bonus.. hope i can wait till den. everyday so bz with work but i dont see any meaning behind all these hard work. its very frustrating when you knw u can do betta elsewhere yet is not given a opportunity to. best is my current company trying to take adv of the situation/me.

ANYWAY.. not done yet with my assignment. crap. wonder when i can finish when i have yet to pen anything. really nothing.tmr hopefully i can make it to the ofc to clear those meaningless work so Mon i can ve peace.

tmr will have to do some visiting..prior to that, my family n cuzzins will be going to F's hse. today is aldy the 4th day of Hari Raya.. time flies. good.. den i can get my bonus real quick!really cnt stand every single mins or seconds in tat ofc of mine. Kaoz.. those pple.. those faces. see aldy also want to puke. SHE is coming back to ofc soon... the thot of if really *&(#% . she n her f____ voice. i think the sound of violin sound better. pray hard she will be on long medical leave or watever.. evil me but really. she is not wanted in the ofc anyway.

....Speechless...

2008-09-27T22:56:00.005+08:00

Am gng back ofc tmr.. yes on a Sunday. I think it's silly to go back but i can work in peace. Best is: is it worth it for THEM? i think not..but those are my work and it's my duty to complete it. So i reckon i m dng it for myself. not them. Being responsible has nothing to do with anyone, tio bo?

tis bloody a** she is really a pain. everyday complaining how bz she is as if i m slacking at one corner (my workstation is @ one corner lor). i think i ve no regrets enrolling myself in GradDip (HCM)... cause i sort of figured out wat actually went wrong wif my company. hopeless is da word. Studying is to learn n save myself, not to plan for them. i am not gng to apply to them. It's for ME!!! the more i learnt the more i realised i better leave soon! does good thing really goes to those who can wait? doesnt seems to be applicable to me (yet). morale gng low to Zero.

i think my weakness is that i cnt master the skill of putting a false front. I cnt fake it. i think diligent is not a pre-requisite at my place. it's to be FAKE!!!! no matter how u hate tat person, no matter wat happen, u must still put on tat- Singapore Girl smile. sigh... i cnt do it. u can hear A saying abt B n B saying abt C... den next thing is A,B,C gng for lunch. u can hear A asking u to beware of B. Den B telling u A said bad things abt u.. den next thing, u c A n B gossiping in a room. I decided - trust no one but urself.

ok, next topic. hmm went to meet the wedding photographer ydae with bro n SIL. not bad. quite comfortable wif tat guy n his work are not bad. can be considered as Bagus. pckg also ok ok. i ve to decide soon as to lock the price for yr 2008. i see him walked over only.. macam seeing a huge $$ sign walking towards me - stress.

i better get gng.. Assignment to do. 2 somemore. some pple think i itchy backside. Degree nt enuff hor, go take Grad Dip. haha. wah gd leh, if not, i cnt pin-point wat my company has been dng to me........

2008-09-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

something unexpected happened as i was OTing just now.. got a call frm this reputable agency recommending me jobs. salary is rather attractive and so i am contemplating if i shd... but it's too early anyway to decide on anything. nothing is firmed up yet BUT i dun believe there's such good deal. still doing wat Im doing but more exposure;more monies. well, tmr is yet another reality.c hw...

my colleague shared with me abt her kids. sec 1. easily influenced by others. she's so worried. Do all parents have to worry for their kids? i can figure how tough it is when u are working yet still wondering wat r ur kids doing.. they are out of ur sight. worst is - are they lying? i believe they can have their wants n needs. but i believe in compromising too. if we can give n take but y are they only taking? no doubt friends can be impt - to certain extend - family is far more impt. it's like i treasure my friendship with so n so but family is without doubt more den a treasure.

To be a liar is as good as a goner. Never lie. Once u did, ur words will be just nothing but thrash. n im sure no one wants to be a thrash. ask n u shall be given- but ask nicely - and COMPROMISE. moderation is the key too. this is applicable to HUMAN. irregardless u r a three-yr-old, students, teenagers, adults or even ah pek.

also...nvr take things for granted. nvr take parents for granted. be appreciative to what is given to u. Im sure if A treats B nicely, A shd expect the same or at least some respect from B. it's just tat simple as ABC.

i ve two nieces n three nephews. diff characters. as my colleagues shared with me abt her kids.. my mind shifted to the five of them. so much so i wish to have gd kids in future, for now, i just hope all my nieces n nephews are not a pain to their parents....

2008-09-17T17:39:00.001+08:00

in office right now.. dozing off.. so exhausted.works are piling up and never seems to finish. since 8.15am. talked to my colleague earlier and discovered lotsa ugly stuffs here. beginning to wonder if it's worth to work hard here. but i am so responsible that i think i will continue to work how i work. haha. you can labelled this as - Yuan Ze - is for my own benefits i reckon, i take pride, i learnt.. at the end of the day, knowledge and experience belongs to me..

my eyes really seeing stars now. so take time off to spout some nonsense here. cause got to work LATE later.

looking forward to someday when i can bring my nieces and nephews out. would like to spend more time with them.. they are so adorable!! i realised family is very impt now. it's never too late to realise anything. so i think i better treasure all the time i have with them. especially since i am settling down next yr end.. i am gonna miss them, esp my niece :( i wonder how often can i see her and whether will she 'forget' her xiao yi. i will be so-very-the sad if she forgets me.. cause she has been with me since baby... i hope she will still talk to me, share with me abt her school, friends, anything. i will be there for her, definately!

as i see my parents aged, i looked back and thot of all the silly things i had done before.. to make them worry. so bad. thou i m not too bad but im sure as parents, they were very worried for me when i was younger.. so moral of the story is - dun disappoint ur love ones. dun disappoint ur parents. even its never too late but life is short. once gone means gone. u may never be able to compensate it....

2008-09-15T23:28:00.000+08:00

my dear niece (Jewel) created this blog for me.. i know nutz abt such thinggy but she's good. wonder how long it will last for such blogging but blog for fun. give myself one mth to play play. kids nowadays are gd with such stuff that i got to get her to teach me.it's so unlike my time...

nothing much happen recently, just busy working and studying. lazy to go out with friends, prefer to hang out with family or slack at home. or talking to my niece abt anything under the sun. she's a big gerl now and looking back, i missed the time when she's abt two three-year-old. she's so adorable and obedient.. everyone adores her. but as she grows, she has her own way of thinking.. own friends etc. sometimes she can get emotional. is this part of growing up? we are all very worried as for her age, she may not comprehend the things we do for her.

sometimes, i wish we can turn back the clock, having her when she's at her younger age. she's fun to be with then... with her sweet smile and all. now, all i ask for is that she dont be influenced by others... if so, it will disappointed many of us. she's the closest i m to among all my nieces and nephews. if she turns bad, its like a deep cut to my flesh. i really hate this growing up stage cause at this time, things are no longer the same and you started to look out for this and that sign for fear of changed attitude.

i know lah i am getting older cause i can sense how parents must have felt (even thou i m not married with kids) it's just so tough to follow the time and keeping up with what the kids are thinking now.. at the end of the day, i just want them, esp Jewel to grow well, to excel and most importantly to know how much we love her and want the best for her...